I am laying naked and alone in a field in the woods in the mountains. I invited everyone to come but nobody came so I just lay here naked and alone in this field with wreaths of flowers in my hair and around my neck. I put two daisies on top of my eyes. Maybe someone will think I’m dead.
I adorned myself for a celebration of life and love and everything you waited for that just never happened. I am hurt and confused and I don’t understand anything anymore. I know it’s a waste of time to think about it and I know there’s no use to cry so I just lay there naked in my field with my flowers and bugs and trees.
I wonder if I hike higher into the mountains and lay in a field of snow if I would eventually become numb. First I would feel like I was burning alive, but then I would feel happy and completely and utterly numb. Frozen on fire. Consumed by frosty flames.
1) Ideally I like tall white guys with shaved heads and light eyes who paint graffiti and skate. However, generally my taste is all over the place. But I like my men masculine and my women feminine. I usually don’t like it if my guy dresses more stylishly than me.
As for ladies: I fucking love asian girls with tattoos, latin girls with big boobies and attitudes, girls with dreads, and light skin dark haired girls (yes, I realize this is slightly conceited of me. lolz)
4) My insecurity is kind of weird… I wish I were chubbier. I like the bodies of chubby girls. Always have. I used to have a really nice ass and then my metabolism went crazy on me and I can’t gain weight no matter how hard I try. I feel scrawny and girlish when I used to feel unique and womanly.
7) Oh dear. Well, I kind of like tattoos but not too many and not stupid ones.And again, white boys with shaved heads and light eyes. Graffiti artists. When guys make noises. When people bite their lip when they’re turned on without realizing they did it. Stockings. Hip bones. shoulder blades. There’s a lot of things but I’m kind of shy. haha.
8) One of my bad habits is procrastinating. However, I do work well under pressure so this isn’t that bad. I always get my shit done I just stress myself out right before the end.